This is for you, Emily Walter

We were just jumping. It's pretty fun.

Adam and Eve

Today in Relief Society we talked about the Fall of Adam and Eve. It was a wonderful lesson by Brianon, who I love to pieces. I know that the Fall was a key part of God's plan for us, and that none of us would be here without. As I looked around the room, I just knew that every one of the women in there were descendants of Adam and Eve, and a loving Heavenly Father. It wasn't something I had faith in, or wanted to believe. I just knew it, the same way I know that pi can be used to find the circumference and the area of a circle. I didn't even feel anything special...just the complete and perfect knowledge that we are all one big family, that we are all alike in so many ways, and being with any one of those sisters would be the same as being with the sisters that share my last name. We are all just members of the human family...so why can't I be as comfortable and happy with any of them as with those I spend more time with? I felt like I knew each of them like I know my roommates and family. It was one of the greatest things I have ever come to know.

This Blog + My eHarmony experiences + the best website ever

So...this blog is kind of random. There are a few rather personal, journal-like posts about my day, and a few deep-thought posts. I don't know. Just thought I'd share.
Anyway. So back in November I made an eHarmony account because I was bored. I deactivated it the same day though. Well, a couple weeks ago my roommate Sarah started talking to a guy she met on a dating website just for fun, so I decided to reactivate my eHarmony account for a few days just for fun. This weekend is a free communication weekend, and a few guys wanted to start communication. The first was a 29 year old guy from Mesa...He was rather odd. Another guy, Tom, from Farmington, also started communication. He seems kind of really into video games, but kind of nice. We'll see. Basically...people on eHarmony are weird. This was not a good experience. 'Twas a weird experience.
And...I love this website. It makes me so happy. It's stumbleupon.com. Eets ze best. I learn from it, and laugh from it, and get to see cool things. You should check it out.

This is Me

This basically describes everything about me.

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-introverts-corner/200908/introverts-unite-quietly

Pride

We mistake confidence for pride...and we mistake shyness for pride...why do we always assume everyone is so proud? As a shy person myself, I try not to assume pride in those that keep themselves apart from everyone. Even so, I sometimes find it difficult to understand. Humanity is so weird.

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The Epic of the Laptop Charger

Two weeks ago, my charger died. This is the Epic of the Laptop Charger.

once upon a time, the hp website lied to her so she ordered the wrong charger. now she has to wait another week for the right charger.

and then, Rachael got her new charger in the mail and all was well. The End.

Right Now

Today in my Psychology of Performance class we talked about living in the moment. I'd always heard people talk about that sort of thing before, and I had even studied it. In both my high school senior English class and in my college German class I studied Siddhartha, which is about a Buddhist man's spiritual journey through life. At one point, Siddhartha realizes that he is much happier when he lives in the moment. I always thought that I understood what this meant. I thought I was pretty good at "living in the moment." However, after my class today, I realized what this truly meant. 
What does living in the moment mean? It means forgetting everything else. It means focusing on what you need now, and now only. Most of the time, all we need is oxygen. Sometimes we need some food. It's truly rare that we really need anything else. We only need those things for a moment. When that moment is over, we don't need it anymore. If we don't need it, then why think about it? My mind is constantly full. Most of what I think about, I could think about for half a percent of what I do now and it'd still probably be too much. I dwell. Ever since class ended, I've been trying to resist dwelling. It's hard to live in the moment when you're walking home alone in the dark...but I managed. My thoughts need more organizing than my life, and so I'm doing that. I'm going to be a happier person now, with much less weighing on my mind. Hopefully I'll have fewer hopes for the impossible things I imagine up as well. I can tell that this is going to be good. Live in the now. 
And...as Thomas S. Monson, President and Prophet of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints said, "Daydreaming of the past and longing for the future may provide comfort but will not take the place of living in the present. This is the day of our opportunity, and we must grasp it."
I think too much. I daydream too much. Because of this, I worry too much. I over think everything. The best thing I could do with my life is stop thinking and just jump. Not blindly...but not with so much caution and fear. In everything I do, it's going to be do or do not. The one thing that's been filling my thoughts for the past six months is going to be a do not. It's over now. I'm here in the now, and I'm here to stay.