I know I'm a flake with that whole questions thing...I've been held up by the ten people who have influenced me question. I'm not sure I can come up with ten. Anyway.
Life is beautiful. Some days, I feel as though I could just laugh and skip and take everything into stride. Other days, my low days, I'm still happy...just quieter and more introspective. Today is an introspections type of day, with a few moments of sublime happiness from singing so freely in my voice lesson. I love to just let my voice out with power, something that only happens once a week in my lesson. I guess I'm just afraid of my neighbors' annoyance or appearing proud. How can I use this gift God gave me? A constant question on my mind.
These days, time just passes. I love life here at BYU but there isn't really anything momentous going on. No special events or trials. It's an in between time; the calm before...who knows. Looking back, this is kind of how I've always felt at school. Sure, there's midterms to ace and boys to chase...it just all seems to mundane. This semester, I've immersed myself in my studies, leaving little time for much else. I love everything I'm learning, especially anatomy, but I want more.
On a slight change of topic...usually, I'm vaguely attracted to various men. Rarely do I find someone I truly feel something for. When these men do come into my life, they seem to be so much better than I am. I find myself asking myself throughout the day "would ------- be doing this? would he like me if I was doing this?" It's always things that I want to better with anyway...it just kind of lends a face to the little voice telling me to do better. We're not supposed to change for someone, and yes I want someone to love me for who I am, not who I want to be. Yet we're also supposed to find someone that makes us want to be better. I guess the true miracle would be one of these men feeling the same way about me.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
GYR: Sieben
7. What is your dream job, and why?
This one has certainly changed over the years for me...I've wanted to do everything from terraform Mars to teach high school math. There are still some jobs that I think sound great, like aerospace engineering, but I really love my current career path. The Communication Disorders major is just so interesting for me, since it combines so many things that I love: biology, language, puzzles, theories, the brain, speaking and singing, hearing...I just love it. Eventually I hope to work either in a hospital or in some sort of private practice doing early intervention, which is helping babies and toddlers learn to speak and overcome their language problems before they're very old. I'd love to somehow tie music into it all, especially singing, but that's just a dream.
What I really want to do with my life, for a few decades at least, is the best job in the world: mother. It's difficult and demanding both emotionally and physically, and requires no special schooling. That's not to say I won't use that schooling I have, and I hope to learn as much as I can about everything I can in order to help my children grow into wise and intelligent adults. Haha. I hope so. I figure once I get my masters I can probably do both once my kids are a little older. Once I have kids. Once I'm married. Once I get there.
So for now, I'm more than happy to be on my current path, towards what I never saw as my dream job until just recently.
This one has certainly changed over the years for me...I've wanted to do everything from terraform Mars to teach high school math. There are still some jobs that I think sound great, like aerospace engineering, but I really love my current career path. The Communication Disorders major is just so interesting for me, since it combines so many things that I love: biology, language, puzzles, theories, the brain, speaking and singing, hearing...I just love it. Eventually I hope to work either in a hospital or in some sort of private practice doing early intervention, which is helping babies and toddlers learn to speak and overcome their language problems before they're very old. I'd love to somehow tie music into it all, especially singing, but that's just a dream.
What I really want to do with my life, for a few decades at least, is the best job in the world: mother. It's difficult and demanding both emotionally and physically, and requires no special schooling. That's not to say I won't use that schooling I have, and I hope to learn as much as I can about everything I can in order to help my children grow into wise and intelligent adults. Haha. I hope so. I figure once I get my masters I can probably do both once my kids are a little older. Once I have kids. Once I'm married. Once I get there.
So for now, I'm more than happy to be on my current path, towards what I never saw as my dream job until just recently.
GYR: Day 6
It's 11:55, so I'll try to get this posted before midnight...but it's not likely, since this is the question and I have no idea what the answer is:
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
There have been many trials in my life that seemed huge at the time, but now seem to have passed so quickly. I moved a lot, and that was hard, but I moved on and adjusted. Just as I've done with everything God as thrown in my path.
Oh. I know.
I can't really expound upon the specifics, but there was something that I needed to do for years and years in my life, but was too afraid to do. I was afraid of judgment, embarrassment, and pain. I was afraid of the change in my life that would come because of it - change I wanted, yet not enough to leave the comfort zone I'd created. It took me about seven years to finally take the step, to cross the fence, to take that leap of faith. And it was wonderful. My fears were for naught, and I wished I had done it years before. It was really the point in my life when I finally grew up. With the fear and pain gone, I also found something I'd lost: happiness. It's a glorious feeling, happiness. It makes that moment of difficulty worth the pain.
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
There have been many trials in my life that seemed huge at the time, but now seem to have passed so quickly. I moved a lot, and that was hard, but I moved on and adjusted. Just as I've done with everything God as thrown in my path.
Oh. I know.
I can't really expound upon the specifics, but there was something that I needed to do for years and years in my life, but was too afraid to do. I was afraid of judgment, embarrassment, and pain. I was afraid of the change in my life that would come because of it - change I wanted, yet not enough to leave the comfort zone I'd created. It took me about seven years to finally take the step, to cross the fence, to take that leap of faith. And it was wonderful. My fears were for naught, and I wished I had done it years before. It was really the point in my life when I finally grew up. With the fear and pain gone, I also found something I'd lost: happiness. It's a glorious feeling, happiness. It makes that moment of difficulty worth the pain.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
GYR: Slackertime
Yes, I realize it's been four days. I'm really not very good with keeping up with this sort of thing...mostly because I don't care all that much. But hey, it's something to do.
2.Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
Fears...most of my fears are private matters, but I'd have to say I don't have many legitimate fears. I guess I'm a tad claustrophobic, most likely from being squished under laundry baskets or inside of closets with no way to get out as a child by my sister. No big deal. I kind of feel like I'm cheating here, but I honestly cannot come up with other fears (that aren't deeply personal). I'm not afraid of bugs or snakes or death or heights or clowns or being Forever Alone. Fear is the absence of faith, after all.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
This one is much easier! I'd say I have a pretty good relationship with my parents. I talk to my mom almost every day, just to talk about current events in my life, or politics, or just anything really. I don't have quite as close a relationship with my dad, but I'd still say it's pretty good. It's gotten better since he became a bishop, most likely due to that mantle that comes with the calling.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
Haha...this one's pretty easy.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
2.Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
Fears...most of my fears are private matters, but I'd have to say I don't have many legitimate fears. I guess I'm a tad claustrophobic, most likely from being squished under laundry baskets or inside of closets with no way to get out as a child by my sister. No big deal. I kind of feel like I'm cheating here, but I honestly cannot come up with other fears (that aren't deeply personal). I'm not afraid of bugs or snakes or death or heights or clowns or being Forever Alone. Fear is the absence of faith, after all.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
This one is much easier! I'd say I have a pretty good relationship with my parents. I talk to my mom almost every day, just to talk about current events in my life, or politics, or just anything really. I don't have quite as close a relationship with my dad, but I'd still say it's pretty good. It's gotten better since he became a bishop, most likely due to that mantle that comes with the calling.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
Haha...this one's pretty easy.
- Be careful what you wish for.
- Do your homework.
- Read the Book of Mormon every day!
- Be strong and resist temptation.
- Kindness begins with me.
- The internet is not a good means of communication when forming a relationship.
- You'll move before your senior year, and try to enjoy Colorado. It's a beautiful state!
- Let it all out and move on!
- No drama.
- Don't give out kisses like candy, k?
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
- The gorgeous weather today
- Learning
- Can I say the weather again? If not...good books.
- Passions
- The Gospel
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Get to Know Your Friendly Neighborhood Rachael Month: Day 1
That really needs an acronym or something... GtKYFNRM. Catchy, yet not quite right. GYR. Perfect.
Anyway, see my previous post from today for an explanation... I'll add a link or something maybe probably not.
1.List 20 random facts about yourself.
Anyway, see my previous post from today for an explanation... I'll add a link or something maybe probably not.
1.List 20 random facts about yourself.
- Looking up at snow falling inexplicably puts a smile on my face.
- I'd rather sing a solo every Sunday in church than give one talk.
- I have never hiked the Y. I want to.
- I want to go back to the little town I lived in in Germany (Eppstein) so much.
- I got a 92 on my Intro to Communication Disorders test today!
- I have a love affair with the sky, both the beautiful blue of a sunny afternoon and the stars at night.
- All the Spanish I know comes from taking Spanish in the 1st and 3rd grades.
- I went to Girls' Camp in Switzerland one year.
- The year before that it was on a military base. It wasn't as cool as it sounds.
- I watched School of Rock for the first time on Monday. It was excellent.
- I read the Book of Mormon for the first time all the way through last year. I'm quickly devouring it a second time currently.
- I want to one day perform for a paying audience...by myself.
- All my birthmarks seem to have faded away.
- I think cadavers are cool.
- I play as Luigi on Mario Kart, riding the Standard Bike M. I dare you to race me.
- I cook because I like good food, not necessarily for the love of cooking.
- I can count to 5 in English, German, ASL, Spanish, French, and Japanese.
- I want to have a gigantic garden and live in the mountains in the future.
- I had to take the second half of the New Testament three times. It's hard to go to that class...
- I'd rather drink water than soda.
This project actually kind of reminds me of another blog I had for a little bit...
Because I Would Like to Post More on This Blog
I don't write on here enough. So I'm going to steal a list of questions from here and answer them every day for a few weeks. We'll call it...get to know your friendly neighborhood Rachael month. It's real.
THE LIST:
1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.
THE LIST:
1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.
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